As a child I struggled in my education and due to shyness found building relationships very difficult. By the time I left school, I was severely depressed, convinced that I was not able to learn and believed that I was worthless (Even now, I sometimes struggle with these feelings, although, they are not as powerful as they once were).
Through a family friend, I found myself at a party which changed the course of my life. I ended up talking to a 2nd year University student who was talking about multidimensional mathematics in the context of 4 or 5 dimensional cubes (I can’t remember which). Anyway, I can’t remember what was said, but I do remember that I was able to visualise what he was saying and found a flaw in his hypothesis. I then made the ‘mistake’ of pointing it out to him. He immediately became heated and started to backtrack which caused his argument to unravel itself and he stormed off while his girlfriend was transitioning from a stifled chuckle to full on laughter (I doubt this helped matters). When I asked her what was funny, she replied that none of his peers could beat him in a debate and that he had just been beaten in a debate by someone who was uneducated!
As I reflected on this event, it dawned on me that I understood his argument! This meant that I had the capacity to understand the concepts behind university level learning. I was not the dunce that I thought I was! I had a functioning brain and therefore I must be able to learn.
This realisation set me on a quest that has caused me to question and re-affirm my Christian beliefs many times. It has caused me to face and overcome many of the self-limiting factors that were restricting my life and it has enabled me to expand into areas which were simply not imaginable when I left school.
Throughout it all, I have discovered that whatever my circumstances, the key to victory is first found by changing the false and negative things that I tell myself. Once that changes, the solution to changing my circumstances becomes visible or (as has happened on rare occasions) the circumstances suddenly change due to an outside and unexpected cause.